"May I ask you a personal question?" he says.
"You can ask."
"You've never been married?"
"That's right. Does that shock you?"
"It surprises me. Not many heterosexual women who look like you make it to forty without getting married at least once."
"Is that a nice way of asking what's wrong with me?"
Kaiser laughs. "It's a nice way of being nosy."
"You'd think I'd be a prize catch, wouldn't you?"
"Yes, I would."
"A lot of guys think that. From a distance."
"What's wrong with up close?"
"I'm not like most women."
"How so?"
"Well, it goes like this. I meet a guy. Good-looking, successful, independent. Doctor, journalist, investment banker, A-list actor. Whatever. He can't wait to go out with me. I'm a not-so-ugly woman in what a lot of people see as a glamour job. The first few dates, he shows me off to his friends. We like each other. We get intimate. Then, in a week or a month, I get a new assignment. Afghanistan. Brazil. Bosnia. Egypt. And not a fly-in-and-out Dan Rather junket. A month on the ground schlepping cameras. Maybe this particular guys is making international partner the next week and wants me at his celebration party. Maybe the Oscars are the next week. But I take the assignment, I won't even discuss turning it down. And by the time I get back, he's decided maybe the relationship isn't working out after all."
"Why do you think that is?"
"Because most guys have the one-up gene."
"The what?"
"The one-up gene. The have to be in the superior position. They love the idea of being with me. But the reality is far from what they envision. Some don't like that I make more money than they do. The ones who make more money than I do don't like it when their friends act like my job is more important than theirs. Some can't take the fact that I have a higher priority than them in my life. I don't mean to complain about it. I just want you to understand." ....
Mom is reading Dead Sleep by Greg Iles right now. She left me a note on the counter this morning that said "Read page 160. Remind you of anyone?" Umm...no. I mean, Yes. I mean..I don't know.
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Nothing is more pitiful than a strong woman who capitulates to the mushy ego of a man.
ReplyDeleteGosh, I can't believe you posted this on your blog, but it did remind me of you going off all of the time to everywhere. I couldn't love you any more than I do this very moment, but it does break my heart to see you leaving again for Australia for maybe a year. The way you are makes me admire you more. I love you so. Mom
ReplyDeleteI am totally loving on your blog. Your mom rocks- by the way- but you already knew that.. I love how you have been home for like 3-5 months and your are almost ready to embark on another adventure down under.. best wishes my friend. & you are an amazing person-- and someday you will fine Mr. Right-- who will loves you for all of you, not just part of you--- Liz
ReplyDeleteWhile I can understand how your mom (Hi Brenda) and friends (Hi Liz) will miss you like crazy... the upside of your journey is that you're coming here! We Aussies will love having you back here. Welcome 'home'! Love, Tam
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